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The Temptations

You know what one of the hardest things about going on this real food journey…the temptations. The cute cookies, the chocolate cakes and bakery treats. You see them everywhere and man do they ever smell so good. It takes so much will power to turn away and most days my 'will power' is already over there licking the icing.

The 5 stages of Hunger

Have you ever been tempted to go to the Golden Arches? I haven’t eaten Mc D’s in well over 4 months, so for me to have this craving, it wasn’t just a ‘well I could have one’ my stomach was like ‘WE ARE HAVING ONE.’ The kind of cravings that take over your whole body and you can’t think about anything else….

Dessert for Dinner

I had gotten a new recipe and I really wanted to try it and not having a clock that works in your kitchen makes it hard to keep track. So I am cutting up the apples for my Apple Crumble and my honey walks in the door..

Changing your Perspective

Today I am going to walk you through some Photography Tips on how to create a better photograph.

New Painting

Today has been a day full of surprises for me! First I got to sleep in, then I checked my blog and had a beautiful comment that brought me to tears, and then I got inspired to finish a painting that I have been working on for over two months.

New Journey

6:02 PM

Tamara

These photo's were taken at work the day of my first day at Curves for Women

The last little while I have come to the conclusion that my weight is really affecting my life. So I decided to change that, with the help of some very important people. My Father is the main reason for me getting up enough courage to face the facts and change. He also is giving me the opportunity to go to the gym, by getting me a membership to Curves for women. Secondly, to my loving boyfriend who has supported me though thick and thin, no pun intended. He is always there for me when I want to try a new diet and it fails like very diet does. But I think at the end of the day, when all is said and done, it is me that is the driving force. It was very hard for me to face the fact that I am very over weight and I need to change my life.

Finding a gym that fit me was the hard part. I wanted to do my research make sure that I was going to like it. I am very low self esteem and I hate, absolutely hate sweating. So I found Curves for Women, and I love it. It is everything I wanted and more in a gym. There is only girls there no guys to make you nervous. The work out is already planned for you, you don’t have to worry about what machine you should be using. And the people are fantastic, they are so nice and wonderful. The first time I went I knew, I fell in love with the atmosphere and the people.

I have now been going to Curves for just over a month now and the results are in. I have lost 3 pounds and lost -3.50 inches. my BMI is down -3.39. I have gotten over my sweating problem and now I just work out and have fun.

I would like to thank everyone for there love and comments. Here is one from one of my readers:
And I know its not easy. But you can do hard things. You have to believe that. And when your ready to change your life you will. I'm sure you've heard it before 'its not a DIET its a lifestyle change But its so true. If you want to lose weight and keep it off you have to change the way your living your life. Make the changes small, this is not going to happen over night. But each small change will build on the one before. It has to be changes you can live with because if you ever go back to your old way of living the weight will come back.
Your comments matter to me, every word! So thank you for being here for me.

Hope everyone is enjoying there summer.

Bye for now.

Photo's are Copyright Sooter Studios Moose Jaw

Things that make me happy

7:04 PM

Tamara

Going for a walk and finding a very curious squirrel that likes to get his picture taken.

And then a little gopher that wanted to join in the fun

Finding a beautiful butterfly and it saying still long enough for me to take a picture

Stopping to take a picture of a flower and a bee drops in to say hello

Babies eating chocolate

Back in Action

10:10 PM

Tamara

I am so glad to finally be back! I have not had internet in a few months and a lot has changed! We moved into a new place and I am loving it. Its way bigger then our old house and is 100% ours. The bills are all on us and everything else too. I am telling you, it’s so nice. I feel like such a grown up now hahah.

I have been really busy the past few months but I haven’t forgot about my blog. I have lots of great posts so keep an eye out.

In the mean time here are some pictures. I was out on my deck this evening just relaxing enjoying the sunset and I took some pictures of things I can see from my deck.

Have a good night!!

Wow Factor!

11:42 AM

Tamara

Four-year-old artist Aelita Andre is making it big in New York City. (Image: aelitaandreart.com)

I logged on to the internet today and was wondered to find Aelita Andre.

She is 4 years old and has paitings in her own gallery in New York with an asking price of up to $30,000 per piece. She is so cute!

When I read her story, and watched this video all i could say was, WOW!

It makes me want to go home and paint. I always find that I think to much when I paint. This will be fun to try and act like a kid and just paint what, in your mind, looks awesome!

I belive that everything brought into your life is there for a reason! Well Aelita, I am Listening!

Make your day a little brighter!!

3:49 PM

Tamara

with Katie from

COLOR ME KATIE

When i have run out of ideas or are just having a bad day, i always look to Katie for the anwers. Her blog is so fun and i just cant get enough. I know i have posted about her before, so if you havent checked her blog out yet, what are you waiting for?

I want to do everything, try anything that she has done, just because it looks so fun!!

This is her!!

and some of the wonderful things she has done...

Get going!!!....I am headed right now :)

Stressed out...

11:54 AM

Tamara

Do you ever have the feeling that things are never going get done? We have recently moved in to a new house and I just see the boxes and wonder will I ever be done unpacking. It’s hard to imagine it all clean and organized when all you see is kayos. I have just started doing one room at a time, and starting with little projects and then taking a break when there done. That way I am not getting overwhelmed with all the things there is to do.

I always feel that I have to be perfect. I am not sure why but in my mind I think there is always someone I am trying to please. The more I think about it the more it frustrates me and more easily I am distracted. I have been ever stressed out this past month with everything that has changed in my life. In the last little while a lot of things have changed and I am not sure I am coping with the stress of it very well. I mean everything has been awesome and all good things but I think the thing is it’s too much too fast. New Job {Job of my dreams}, New House {totally an upgrade}, and New Car {awesome on gas} my life has done a 360 on me, in a good way, but my head it still spinning.

Have you ever got so overwhelmed you just want to sit in a corner and cry? That’s how I have been feeling, and for not fault of Skylar’s, I am taking it out on him. I was driving the other day and listening to the radio and he changed the station, and I lost it. I freaked and I have no idea why. I got so frustrated and he changed it back right away but I blew it so out of proportion. I have no idea who this person is I am turning into but I just wish it would stop. I have the best job ever and the world’s greatest boss alive and still I just want to stay home because I am afraid that I will make her not like me. Or do something out of line, it’s not like me to be like this and I have no idea how to fix it or what to do. It’s like I am depressed about something, I have not a clue what it would be, and just can’t fix it. I keep thinking in my head “oh after this it will be better” or “next month it will be fine.”

The more I think about it the more I am beginning to think I know what it is. As I am writing this it’s almost like a light had turned on in my head. Thinking about how I have been acting and so moody towards Skylar. I almost don’t want to say it because this conclusion is very embarrassing. My Weight.

I have been stressing out about it for the past month and it has constantly been on my mind. I have recently tried a new diet and failed. Skylar is back to work now and is dropping the pounds like its nothing. I have been having such a battle with my weight for the past 3 years and have just been gaining and gaining. I am so depressed about my weight I never want to go anywhere. I think it’s the summer bug. Seeing everyone in bathing suits and tank tops and not being able to wear that kind of stuff hurts my heart. I am sure there are lots of people out there with this issue and my same feelings but when you’re in it, you feel so alone.

What a revelation I have just come to…! Now I know where to start…

{I am sorry if this doesn’t make sense to anyone, I write as a think and as my mind changes. I hope you can follow along with my brain waves and understand what I am thinking}

Here I am...

11:59 AM

Tamara

Here I am. Sitting here sick, as it were, with nothing to do but talk to myself. Hearing myself gabber away about the goings on of the day that has passed, wondering. What will tomorrow bring or rather will I still be ill and feel like dying. Being sick is always a bad thing for me, because my brain doesn’t get sick and so it carries on the day without me. Wondering this and pondering that, when all I want it to do is stop. Shut up and let me sleep, however, it always has other plans.

It starts with the notion of waking up then it’s on the ponder, should I go to the bathroom now or wait and have to run there in five minutes. Then on from there with thoughts of breakfast or at least something to drink, Oh but that is to open of a though, something to drink. There are far too many possibilities to think about there. Juice, coffee, tea or just water? Oh but that is way too simple for my brain since by this time it has already decided and now is on to a new subject already.

My mind has no notion of time; however it is very aware of the time. Minuets, hours, months, years, days and seconds, but does not stress about that matter for it cannot be altered or changed.

My stomach now screaming at me but for what I am still unsure, food or drink? I take a drink of my water, but nothing, it persists. Now is when my brain hits it in to high gear with thoughts of food, what kind, how much. Every little detail being speed through as if it was a race for best food finishes first. Throwing my warm blanket to the side, I sit up stretching for the heavens and hearing my back crack. Slowly I make my way to the kitchen, because even though my mind is running a marathon inside my over headed head, it still has not made a decision.

Making a detour to the bathrooms medicine cabinet distracts it for a brief moment, Advil to shut the door and close the blinds on my brain for the night. Taking the dosage and heading to bed, I try to think of sleep. I rub my eyes in anticipation for the sandman; the cool air from the gently running fan helps my overheated body cool. Yawning and stretching my body for the nights rest my eyes start to water, I wipe them and turn on to my side. Thoughts of white sheep wearing numbered jerseys make me smile as I fall in to a deep and restful sleep.