Hello Everyone!

I am back and I am so sorry for being gone so very long. I have been dealing with a lot in my life and fighting against many demons and I am sure my fight is not over yet. I have been going through personal changes and spiritual changes, all for the best!
I have been listening to K Love! Thank you to everyone who recommended this station to me♥ I have been creating most of my art when listening to this station. It’s like I get and angel of art come down to me and just moves that brush or pencil and I go crazy!
I couple weeks ago I was put on the spot by someone very close to me and it stopped me in my tracks and made me think. I was talking to ‘her’ –no names- and I was talking about going to church and this crazy journey that I am on right now trying to figure out who I am and who I am living for. And her comment was “well you’re only doing this so you have something to talk about on your blog”


I am not sure what I should say to that, I just kind of laughed it off and made a joke. But it really hit me, ‘is that what is really going through your head?’ I was just at a loss for words.

So the past few weeks I have been trying to find the ‘real’ me.

Who am I?

I am I this person that just talks the talk and doesn’t do anything about it.

Search for the answer and it will find you…. Yes

The answer was yes.

It takes more than one day to change and be changed, but you know what, God is working in me and he never leads you on the path most traveled. He is going to lead you through the swamp and thorns and push you, but do you know what happens to you in the end? You become stronger. He pushes you until you fall on your knees and realize how strong he is. The path is sometimes hard but if you stick it out you will be stronger for it.
I have been going to bible studying, learning and hanging out with other christians, and it has been amazing! I have it marked on my calendar and I try to never miss one, the people are great and Pastor B. is wonderful. I have been Volunteering with the church and getting invloved in the community. I have been doing great at work, and I just feel amazing!
I have been drawing again, and painting again. I have been just being so creative and it has been amazing! I have so many pictures and fun things planned for this wonderful blog of mine.

Because it is mine!

I can write about anything that I want, or talk about anything I want. Because it is MINE! And I want to share it with the world.

It’s like my faith, it is mine but I want to share HIS love with everyone. I am not doing this to be praised, I am not doing this for my own personal gain, I am doing this to praise GOD. Following the path that he has laid out for me, I am here to praise him.

 I don’t care if no one reads my blog; I don’t care if no one takes anything from it. But out of the 10 that don’t care, there is just 1 that needed to hear what I had to say.

If you never try you will never succeed.

If you do not feel the sadness you will take the joy for granted.

I have found myself through Christ my savor and I will not stand back and do nothing. In bible study tonight we talked about Acts 8. Some people just need it explained to them, they don’t need to be preached at or judged, they just need someone to listen to them and teach them.
The devil is always trying to move in and discourage you, but you have to be strong and willing to take the ‘hit’ for what you believe in.

Don’t forget to smile!


  1. I know this is only a small part of what you pulled out, here, but I wanted to tell you: you're not alone in having a real-life friend misunderstand your blogging deal. A friend of mine expressed annoyance that I'd rather blog than write her a personal letter, and she assumed that my reason for blogging over letter-writing is the number of comments / amount of feedback I receive from blogging. I found it a bit offensive because I know in my heart: ultimately, I blog for my kids. I started blogging so I could print and bind all my words, for my kids. I thought it was weird, too, b/c--at the point at which my friend complained--she owed ME a letter.

    Most non-bloggers probably don't get it. I guess that's ok.

    I'll say, too, non-Christians don't get the Christian thing b/c they don't have that indwelling Spirit to inform and teach them. It's easier for them to look in on our continued failures. It's a long and slow journey. If God transformed us all at once, our heads would pop off!!!

    You're doing all the right things. Blessings to you, Sister.

  2. Tamara...I couldn't have said it better myself! On your journey of faith, you will find that people with try to tear you down, but stand STRONG! God has not given you a spirit of timidity, but of power!

  3. You never cease to amaze me young lady !! You have grown to be a free thinker and not afraid to take on your vounrability (sp) and move forward in your life. Always remember that the things in life that are worth having are also the things worth fighting for. I love the fact that you are taking comments made about your "intentions" and not letting them cloud your judgement or make you back off from them. It makes me extremely proud to say that I am your father and keep up the good work. YOU ARE SIMPLY AMAZING !!!

  4. There will always be people to try and discourage you somehow. When you are a Christ follower, the enemy is always hard at work to take away your joy and steer you away from the path that leads to eternal life. Great job for standing for God and when those types of people cross your path, show them the love of Christ and pray for them. I'm so happy that you are growing in your faith and walk with the Lord. By the way, I do read your blog and it blesses me.

    Blessings, stay strong sister!


  5. AnonymousJune 16, 2012

    Hey There. I found your blog using msn. This is
    an extremely well written article. I will be sure to bookmark
    it and return to read more of your useful information.
    Thanks for the post. I'll definitely comeback.
    Here is my site ; Guitar Lesson For Beginners


I love comments! Thank you for taking the time to let me know what you think!