Just had to Wait

Do you ever find yourself saying “I love my life, I love my life” in a sarcastic voice.

Yesterday I had one of those ahh haa moments, as Oprah would say. I finally realized I have been talking all about me. With everyone that I come in contact with, me me me me me! What made me finally come to this conclusion you might ask, well it happened a few nights ago.

I was talking to my dad on the phone, and I was having a really bad day and I needed to vent. So I am talking away and talking and talking. So after about 45 minutes I decided it’s time to go to bed, so I say goodbye and hang up the phone. My honey then turns to me and asks me how my dad was doing, and I paused, and replied “I don’t know I didn’t ask.” How could I be on the phone with someone for that long and only talk about myself? A bell rings in my head and that’s when it started to sink in.

Fast forward a few days and I am having lunch with one of my very good friends from my old work. Were having lunch and talking and talking, he is almost finished his lunch and I have barely touched mine. A bell rings again. I pause and ask him how he has been doing. Have I become this self-involved? I am I so stressed out that I have to vent to everyone that will listen?

Now taking everyone back to last night… That bell has been ringing my head for a few days now, so loud that I can’t think to talk any more. So I went to my honey and I asked him what he thought about our conversation and actually listened to his answer and we had a very good discussion. Were laying in bed and I am just staring at the ceiling, when I break down. I am sorry I haven’t been listening and I am sorry for being so selfish. And this part is golden and totally made my night. He turns to me and says, “I knew you would come back, I just had to wait.” And then he kissed me good night.

How lucky I am to have a wonderful man like that, he understands and doesn’t get mad even when I am being crazy. Got to love him!

Don’t forget to smile!